ECHOES OF FEAR
THE ECHOES OF FEAR AND POSSIBLE FRUSTRATION
My hub blog here speaks volumes but why the name. I probably know not.
My story with grace begins with meeting her outside Church around Aug 2024 and later talking to her and letting her know that i intend to marry her in Aug, 25th evening.
We later have a talk after too many intoxicating conversations with her and discover she has all along had wonderful parents away from her actual friends the Benedicts.
Our journey begins with bringing them on board and well, i was so glad when they accepted me to their company. I couldn't believe i could ever be in the association of such esteemed figures and well, on several occasions, I found myself sit with them and dine with them.
Oct 2024.
24th/10/2024
A call comes and here is Dad Benedict. He wants to meet me tomorrow on 25th. The instructions are clear, please do not tell your fiancé about our meeting. Its a men's affair. Its 25th morning. Am still lingering about the meeting and can't have glimpse of what we are going to discuss though.
5pm i rush to town. Just bumped with my sweet brother Sham Wambua. After a little chat, i head to Old Naivas to meet Mr. Benedict for Lysak Hotel meeting. As we keep sharing, boom, His wife shows up unexpectedly and then behind her, her majesty, the royal Queen of the marvelous epic larcenous Prince. well, i don't know why, but wait, its been just like a movie. On her hands, a bunch of flowers with a writting on it, I say Yes.
This sparked mixed feelings inside me. I thought i will bw so happy but no. It didn't flow naturally.
I had rather able to force it to happen and make the unexpected smile as huge as a kisii banana.
Nov 2024.
We have had several meetings now and of course things sound to be taking a new direction. The friendship that we have had is now shifting towards a relationship and dating towards marriage. Grace looks very nice girl, but i feel the anxiety to know her more. i feel there is something i still need to tarry a little while and know about her.
we have planned our events calendar ranging from Introductions to wedding scheduled on 26th April 2025.
Dec 2024.
What a weird dream. I am on the couch watching in this new house. While on the laptop and very busy indeed, flames of fire burst from the kitchen side and slowly advances towards where i was seated. All alone, i knew am alone in the house but ooops- there is a woman in the bedroom. Then i rush out, but on my way out, i meet this lovely couple with a shadow husband. Well, forget about couple, within a second or save two of them, the entire house was burnt with everything that was in it and, damn, its gone.
As I keep running out, behold, a big bang is heard on the right side of the house, the wall splits open, and the very woman is thrown off the to the ground. Smoke escaping from her body and every through her nostrils. She is like an inflated ball.
Shocked?
Yes, I am shocked what a mystery it is. On rolling back into the house, this time, there was no fire burning. A silent glowing fire was burning times without a single blazes of fire being seen. All in the house has been consumed except a books shelf on the far end of the sitting room next to where i was sitting. This white Beautiful books shelf has a blue documents wallet. I picked it up and behold, its my all times favorite. All documents intact, no single dent of smoke is upon it.
Thank you God this far. Then this scripture comes. You have removed my life from the grave.
Days through December
Conflicts and word fists kick off.
Sometimes I do my best to leave my job early to rush to Machakos, A whole heel of mixed sacrifice and negligence of duty. Getting to her all i get is scolds, quarrel of how my clothes are not ironed, how i smell badly without perfume, how i look shaggy and my clothes are buggy.
I just wish i minded my dressing. But is it possible? I have been minding all along, but for a few days i have known this girl, the stress of keeping up with her negatives, scolds and negative energy plus the push to be in every meeting has resulted into intense loss of weight. I don't know how to manage everything.
27th & 28th Dec 2024
Am traveling home after attending a youth Conference hosted by Rev. Kamuti and Min Amos and Apostle Kiange were ministering. As we near Mukio river, its about 10pm and abruptly a drunkard man in a brown whole clothe (suit) staggers to the center of the road and my rider is forced to swerve off the road but luckily enough, we get home well.
On the second day while at home, we have a Family at home and afterwards, I head to water the Cattle. As soon as they are full and i start to gather them, And as sooner we join the main Road, an over speeding motorcycle bumps on me and oops, am cast off the cliff.
Jan 2025.
THE WEDDING PERSPECTIVE VS THE MARRIAGE PERSPECTIVE
Hey It has been a moment of forward and back slip throws and alas.
sometimes i take time to pause and think endlessly judging every decision i have made in this life. Wait, if i could recount every mistake, its not fit for me to be a alive, I ought to be a long way under pit. Being unfit has never disqualified me from making progress in life. Some errors were indeed life threatening and disheartening. But all i have had to do, is to trust In Gods Mercies and keep forging forward trusting each day that i wanna make it.
I have had all these people who don't trust in me, but a few did trust in me for they saw a treasure in Me. What am actually saying, that there is a potential in me, its not easy to disclose every detail of what i am up to in life with my liberality and presumed silence. Some people think am just a by the way, but that has never dripped the sweet wine off my bones. Am strong ready to fight for what i believe in and indeed want to become. One key fear i keep guarding my heart form is to be controlled and domiciled in a patterning that makes me a misfit candidate to my future.
WAIT, SOMETIMES I ASK MYSELF,
Did i make the right choice for my wife. Well, i may not have made the wrong choice, but is it possible to remodel that choice it fit my expectation?
Is it possible?
Is she the clay in a potters hand or i am the clay in her hands. I am still pondering this. Where is the mystery?
I need to get to the bottom of this.
What actually her his main interests in me?
1. presentability. Always questions and scolds me about how shaggy i dress. Am i that useless dresser?
2. Pressure for expenditure. Are the presumed expenditure's worth?
2. Dates. When next are we going for dates. Though sometimes so rare.
Among all her pushes, when has she asked me about my vision?
What is her interest in making me better financially, career wise and general growth.
Could i be just alone in this journey?
Are my ambitions completely opposite of each other?
But what was my idea of marriage before i got here?
A happy marriage full of love, genuine consultations. Paired ambitions and
Am indeed out of myself?
Our union is indeed not about us but actually about other people. Its such infiltrated to a point every decision can be referenced to another prototype and guess what, i write this blog, am just tensed and out of myself. Some templates we have in life have their own story of strife, struggle towards success and what
What will i say to my wonderful bosom brother.....?
"😭Your friend here has been well, braving through tough times. But well, i am trying all i can.
Well, thank you so much, my brother, for the love, support, and eminent presence that you granted me during the Dowry payment event. Indeed, i felt loved and protected by a real brother.
My siblings have been missing in action, but you stood with me. Thank you so much.
Since then, It has been a moment of busy schedules. We haven't managed to get quality time, probably to catch up. I have much i wish i shared with you, but we haven't had that time.
Well, plans are almost over, but guess what, in as much as i had made up my mind, i guess this entire process is giving rendering into a depressing mode. I don't know where I am headed to. A lot has happened, but my feelings and instincts are completely off the touch of reality.
I would say, i feel completely lost. Can't trace myself. My smiles are gone. No more joy nor the very organizational skills i had are gone. At work, i am performing so poorly. I'm at the point where i just feel like a sack full of stuff.
I know you can't do a lot, but please, Lucky, pray for me. I know not of what is happening in my life. It's so weird and off reality. I wish i just vanished, but what am i gonna do. Am trying to pretend and swim with the current to show that all is well, but I am not alive to myself.
For a long time, i have been suffering a lack of sleep, persistent anger, and serious pain on my back. I guess i am straining a lot. Hatred has filled my heart, no more genuine love. Are you saying that it's so heartbreaking? Yes, it is so painful and wretching, but i still can't do anything.
All i need now is God's intervention to restore me."
Am on my blog 2.02 morning, No sleep in my eyes. Just hoping all is well.
okay Goodnight.
WEDDING OBJECTION CHAT WITH CHATGPT CONVERSATION.
Yes, i need help. Along the way, we had differences and despite having had long standing conflicts, I did state my concerns on the wellness of our marriage regarding to assessment on our preparedness and relationship history. With his concern, we were called upon by the best couple on 30th May for an evening meeting that lasted through 31st May. Later on, I (Mesharch Mutua), on 3rd June, Made a call to Rev. Peter Kyengo stating that I wanted to see him soon possible to address some issues that have persisted in our relationship between Grace Kasyoki and I (Mesharch Mutua). He gave me an appointment the following day 4th June. In a meeting that began around 5.30pm through few minutes past 1 am on 5th June, i broadly highlighted the issues which we had of which right counsel or inquisitive questions were asked. The meeting constituted our Best Couple Mr. Benedict and his wife Damaris and Rev. Peter Kyengo in partial presence of Mr. Amos Kyalo in a few occasions as he would be called upon. After the meeting, I expressed that I felt we needed to address the issues in our relationship and come into terms so that we can proceed with the wedding plans. This would need extra time and therefore asked for an extension of the time and postponement of the wedding date which was due on 14th June. Later, A meeting was planned to take place at Kyumbi Junction at Living word Church of which i gave my apology and sought not to attend. later the following day, after church service, on 15th June, a meeting was constituted at Pst. sally's office alongside Church ministers and later another meeting on 21st June statrting from 6.21 pm with Rev. Peter Kyengo alongside Apostle Kiange whose discussions being a turn of events and resulting to I being blamed and somehow being pressurized forced me to make a random decision to terminate my relationship with Grace Kasyoki. Prepare this story well for documentation in a legal framework.
RESPONSE.
STATEMENT OF RELATIONSHIP COUNSELING AND DECISION TO TERMINATE MARRIAGE PLANS
Prepared by: Mesharch Mutua
Concerning: Relationship between Mesharch Mutua and Grace Kasyoki
I, Mesharch Mutua, hereby provide a formal account concerning the series of events that led to the decision to terminate my engagement with Ms. Grace Kasyoki and the subsequent postponement and eventual cancellation of our intended wedding, initially scheduled for 14th June 2025.
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Background and Concerns Raised
Despite being engaged to Ms. Grace Kasyoki and progressing in our marriage preparations, longstanding conflicts and unresolved issues persisted within our relationship. Concerned about the wellness and sustainability of our future marriage, I made the decision to seek clarity and assess our preparedness, based on the history and state of our relationship. -
Initial Meeting – 30th to 31st May 2025
Following my expression of concern, we were invited by our best couple, Mr. Benedict and Mrs. Damaris, for an evening meeting on 30th May 2025. This session extended through to the early hours of 31st May and served as a forum to discuss the concerns and evaluate the direction of our relationship. -
Counseling with Rev. Peter Kyengo – 4th to 5th June 2025
Subsequently, on 3rd June 2025, I personally contacted Rev. Peter Kyengo requesting an urgent meeting. He scheduled our session for the following day, 4th June 2025. The meeting began around 5:30 PM and lasted until a few minutes past 1:00 AM on 5th June. In attendance were Rev. Kyengo, our best couple Mr. Benedict and Mrs. Damaris, with occasional input from Mr. Amos Kyalo as called upon. During this session, I comprehensively outlined the key issues in our relationship. The discussion was conducted with depth, involving relevant counsel and reflective questions. I concluded the meeting by indicating the need for additional time to address and resolve the matters raised before moving forward with the wedding. -
Request for Postponement of the Wedding
Given the gravity and sensitivity of the issues discussed, I formally requested a postponement of the wedding originally set for 14th June 2025, with the intention of creating space for proper resolution and healing. -
Follow-Up Meeting – Kyumbi Junction (Date Not Attended)
A follow-up meeting was planned to take place at Living Word Church, Kyumbi Junction. However, due to personal reasons, I gave my apologies and opted not to attend the said meeting. -
Meeting on 15th June 2025
Following Sunday service on 15th June 2025, a separate meeting was convened at Pastor Sally’s office. It involved various church ministers who took interest in our case and further sought to understand the situation. -
Final Meeting – 21st June 2025
On the evening of 21st June 2025, starting at 6:21 PM, another meeting was held with Rev. Peter Kyengo and Apostle Kiange. During this session, the tone of discussion took a different direction. The nature of the conversation resulted in me being blamed for the issues in the relationship. I also experienced undue pressure which culminated in me making a final and difficult decision to terminate the relationship.
Conclusion
After due diligence through counseling, spiritual consultation, and multiple meetings with trusted parties, I, Mesharch Mutua, made a reasoned and final decision to end my engagement to Ms. Grace Kasyoki for the purpose of emotional wellbeing, spiritual clarity, and long-term peace.
This document is intended to serve as a formal record of events and decisions made in the course of this process.
LETTER TO ATTORNEY GENERAL.
Using instances in the above story, create an objection letter to the wedding scheduled on 14th June, to be submitted to the attorney general office, addressed to the attorney general office at Machakos Branch. State that that while there existed a longstanding conflicts between and and Grace Kasyoki, a keen observation to the matter wasn't considered, that the church leadership didn't grant us time to resolve our matters, that the follow-up meetings weren't aimed at helping resolve the maters but rather on exposing us to more external parties against my esteemed wish and consent, that the blue form obtained from the office of the attorney general on Thursday June 12th, 2025 being obtained after the signing of affidavit that requires the groom and bride to be swearing and signing didn't bear my signature as the groom and that violates my privileges and ultimate recognition as the groom, that the aftermath meetings were intimidating and unfruitful in a way to grant me the capacity to carry on with the wedding plans, that following the pressure and intimidation in the aftermath meetings, I resorted to terminate the relationship and term the wedding planning between Grace Kasyoki and I null and void and that the application made by I (Meshrach Mutua) dated 15th May, 2025 followed my physical appearance at your office (Attorney General office Machakos branch) on Thursday 19th June to object the wedding stands valid, that following my decision on 21st June 2025 which was well communicated to Rev. Peter Kyengo and Grace Kasyoki on that day stands that the relationship is annulled, that on the same day. Add a citation from the constitution providing the procedure for objection of a wedding and provide for the due consideration by a registrar of the office of the Registration of marriages under the attorney general to ascent to the request
RESPONSE.
MESHARCH MUTUA
P.O. Box [Your Postal Address]
Phone: +254728669236
Email: mesharchkm@gmail.com
Date: 20th June 2025
To:
The Registrar of Marriages
Office of the Attorney General
Machakos Branch
P.O. Box [AG's Postal Address – Machakos]
RE: FORMAL OBJECTION TO THE WEDDING BETWEEN MESHARCH MUTUA AND GRACE KASYOKI – SCHEDULED FOR 14TH JUNE 2025
Dear Registrar,
I, Mesharch Mutua, hereby formally submit this letter of objection to the marriage that was scheduled between myself and Grace Kasyoki, which was to take place on 14th June 2025, on the basis of legal, procedural, and relational grounds outlined below:
1. Longstanding Relationship Conflicts
There have existed persistent and unresolved conflicts between Grace Kasyoki and myself. Despite my efforts to raise these concerns and call for a comprehensive reassessment of our relationship readiness, sufficient attention was not granted to the seriousness of these matters.
2. Lack of Adequate Time and Process for Resolution
Following my petition for time to resolve the above issues, the church leadership – particularly those involved in our wedding planning – did not permit us adequate time to work through these concerns constructively. Instead, I was subjected to rushed meetings and undue pressure to proceed with the wedding.
3. Violation of Privacy and Consent
Subsequent follow-up meetings, some of which occurred at the Living Word Church (Kyumbi) and later at Pst. Sally’s office, involved external church ministers and parties, without my prior consent or desire. These engagements were not structured to facilitate resolution but rather increased external pressure and discomfort in the matter.
4. Invalidity of the Blue Form Obtained
I was informed that the blue form (Notice of Marriage under the Marriage Act), allegedly submitted from your office, was issued on or around Thursday, 12th June 2025, without my signature. This directly contravenes the requirements of the Marriage Act, 2014 under Section 6(1) and Section 12, which stipulate that both parties must sign the Notice and complete an affidavit affirming their voluntary intent to marry.
My signature as the groom does not appear on this form, making its issuance irregular and void. Any legal proceeding or marriage certificate arising from such a form would be procedurally flawed and in violation of my personal and legal rights.
5. Mental Distress and Intimidation
Meetings held on 15th June and most significantly on 21st June 2025 with Rev. Peter Kyengo and Apostle Kiange were conducted in a manner that was highly intimidating and accusatory toward me. These meetings undermined my confidence and mental capacity to proceed with the marriage.
6. Termination of Relationship and Wedding
Following the events of 21st June 2025, I made a conclusive decision to terminate the relationship with Grace Kasyoki and formally informed both her and Rev. Peter Kyengo of the same. Accordingly, the wedding is null and void, and all preparations and legal intentions toward this union are formally withdrawn.
7. Prior Objection Lodged
I also wish to reaffirm that I made a physical appearance at the Attorney General’s office, Machakos Branch, on Thursday, 19th June 2025, to object to the marriage following an initial application for marriage made by myself on 15th May 2025. This objection was well communicated and recorded.
Legal Basis for Objection
Under Section 14 of the Marriage Act, 2014 (Revised 2021), any person may object to the intended marriage by giving notice of the objection to the Registrar in writing. Upon receiving such notice, the Registrar is empowered to:
"…investigate the objection and may uphold or dismiss it, depending on the findings, and shall not issue a certificate or solemnize the marriage until the objection is resolved."
In light of the above, and based on the irregularities in process, consent, and legality, I respectfully request the Registrar of Marriages, Machakos Branch, to:
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Uphold my objection to the intended marriage.
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Invalidate any legal documentation issued in relation to the planned marriage between myself and Grace Kasyoki.
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Record the annulment of the relationship as per my final decision dated 21st June 2025.
I trust that the Office of the Attorney General will act with the utmost integrity, discretion, and adherence to the provisions of Kenyan law as enshrined in the Marriage Act, 2014.
Please find attached relevant documents and a sworn affidavit, should you require them for validation.
Yours sincerely,
Mesharch Mutua
(Signature)
ID No: [Your ID Number]
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